Sunday, January 30, 2011

Bhabha Ate My Soul

Anthropological theory hates me. I'm all for deconstructing post-postmodernism and discussing the state of post-colonial anthropology. However, do I really have to read 300 pages of a super intelligent guy that doesn't believe in definite boundaries and therefore rambles for approximately 299 of those pages?

The answer, unfortunately, is yes. I also have to write a paper about the information I'm supposed to be gleaning from this work and lead a three hour discussion class on it on Wednesday.

I'm pretty sure my brain is trying to retreat into the realm of day dreams every five minutes as an act of self-preservation.

Monday, January 24, 2011

The Dog Days Are Over?

Last week was rough. It was the first week of school and piles of homework, the first week back in SD by myself and I had a meeting with my advisor who told me to slow down. Never in my life have I had an educator tell me to stop trying to learn so much! In conclusion, I was kinda bummed. But yesterday felt like a turning point.

Yesterday I discovered an Eels CD on my iTunes that I'd never listened to before. I love it! I also read my homework next to the pool and got a little sunburnt. And for dessert last night I made homemade Cherimoya and Strawberry ice cream. All little things, but they add up to a big accomplishment: I enjoyed my day. Basically I'm feeling good, ready to take on the week.

Maybe my advisor is right and I should slow down and smell the beach air. After all, I am living in San Diego! But that does not mean that I'm not going to keep pushing myself to learn behind his back because, lets face it, getting things done is what makes me happy!

PS: Look up the Glee version of the song "The Dog Days Are Over" it will probably change your life.

Friday, January 14, 2011

School Books

I hate buying books for school. They are always expensive. They are always heavy. And they always remind me of how much reading I'm going to have to accomplish in the next 15 weeks.

Also this semester I have to have a whole book (350 pages) read by the my first class (Wed.) and I haven't started it yet. And Amazon can't get it to me in time so I have to read it off Google books which means inside reading on the computer, not outside in the beautiful weather reading.

On the bright side, I like learning and books and school.

If I keep reminding myself of that, I'll start to enjoy buying books, right?

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Time to go home

So if you didn't know, I've been in Spokane for about a month. That means for a whole month I've been living in my parents' house. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents and we actually get along pretty darn well, but this isn't my home anymore and I've been here too long for this to count as a vacation.
So I'm sort of living in limbo, not really building on my life because my life mostly is in San Diego now. The only saving grace is that I've gotten to see Elisha a ton! Basically we've hung out for 4/5 of the days I've been in town. It's been awesome to have my BFF in the same town as me and also to have friends that I can call and just hang out with. For example, in this past week I've just hung out and chatted or played games 4 different times with a different mix of people each time.
A part of me really wishes I could stay in Spokane and keep living this life. But a bigger part of me is ready to for my own space again. It was good that I came home and recharged my drive to finish school and also to keep creating the life that I want in San Diego. Although Spokane will always be my home town, this visit has reminded me that it is no longer my home. And I'm ready to go home. I just wish my family and friends lived closer to me!

Monday, January 3, 2011

New Year

New Year; New Start on:
My Master's Program,
My self esteem,
My eating habits,
My dating life,
My stress level,
My spending levels,

I love the fact that we give ourselves a brand new start every year. At the start of each new year, we sit and talk about all the things we are going to differently and about how we are going to be happier. Whether I change or not, January 1 I promise that this year will be amazing to myself. I hope. I like that we as a Nation, hope. It's important. So I make resolutions and even if they have fallen by the side by February, it's okay. Because next year, I get to try again.